Beauty from my heartache.

As productive as today was, I still wish to call my dad, see my dad, hug my dad.  I know it will never happen.  But today was one of many days where I just miss him and long to see him.  I feel bad for my mother.  Could you imagine, being with someone you love for 32 years your best friend, your soul mate, your anchor, and within 4 hours he's gone? No wonder all she wants to do is sleep and cry.  I am beginning to feel the same way now that things are starting to calm down.  I have this aching in my heart.  Like, have you ever been so, so, so homesick, the kind of homesick where the only thing that will make it better IS to go home?  That's exactly how I feel except I am home and I just strongly miss my dad.  He was literally my best friend.  I could call him and he was always there.  Whenever I wanted to go see a movie nobody else would go with me to see, he was willing.  Whenever I was stressed or worried over something, he reassured me and calmed my heart.  And he was supportive of everything, absolutely everything I did no matter how crazy.  I will miss him forever, love him for always and cherish every memory I made with him.  Today was pretty cool to see how God provided for my mom.  She has been very stressed, and as we were driving home I told her to just have faith for once, just for one day, for five minutes.  Once we were home BOOM there was 3 answers to prayer in our faces.  It wasn't even like an, "I told you so mom" moment.  More like a, God is good and faithful to provide, Praise Him.

Today after we went grocery shopping, I came outside to this beautiful sunset.  I don't know what it is with me and sunsets but I can't think of anything better than the sunsets.  Gods masterpiece, I think.  Tomorrow is my last day of freedom, before I really do have to face normalcy head on and go back to work.  I'm sad about it I have really enjoyed my time.  I think it will help getting back to normal, hard to readjust to life at work, but helpful.  Just have to keep a positive spirit about it.